Overcoming Postnatal Depression

I struggled with anxiety a bit when I was in my 20’s, and in my family we have a history of PostNatal Psychosis. So when I became pregnant, I let my husband know that it might happen to me too. I loved the idea of becoming a parent, but when I became a mother it was the hardest and most overwhelming thing in the world. I had no idea what I was doing. After 3 months, my symptoms started showing as an uncontrollable anger. A rage that would blind me and it wasn’t until after it passed that I would look back and think “who is this person”.

One day, 6 months after giving birth to my first child, I found myself lying on the floor sobbing and thought this isn’t right. So I went to see my GP who started me on anti-depressant medication. I know medication isn’t for everyone but it worked for me. I'm really glad I finally sought medical help and haven’t looked back ever since.

I still struggle daily, but I feel more myself. Parenting is still hard, but my emotions are more stable. I feel present as a parent, and able to make decisions with a sane mind. I just feel happier. Especially since I know my family has a happy mum (for the most part, haha).

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